During these last couple of years, I didn't feel comfortable going more than two to three hours away from home, so vacations have been - while nice - not our usual types of vacations. And we've cancelled several longer distance trips just because I couldn't be that far from home.
The last 9 months have been the worst. My dad's condition worsened continuously, and watching him decline was awful! Having him leave us and go to his new eternal home in heaven has been mostly joyful because it was so much harder seeing him so uncomfortable and in pain, but also because I know I will see him again one day, and we'll never have to part again.
Oh, I've had my moments, several with my Mama when we would be talking, take each other's hands and share a teary smile. During the funeral service I cried a good bit, but it was mostly good, cleansing tears. And since that time I've had a moment or two alone - one being in the shower this morning. Just doing normal things without having to worry about the phone ringing with an emergency is such a bittersweet relief!
My mom is back home, and ready to start her life over. They were married over 59 years and lived in the same house all that time. My dad has always been kind of 'high maintenance', and the last few years even more so, so she is ready for a little independence. Just today her sister came to get her and they went 'gallivanting' around town. She has already dealt with Social Security, medical insurance, life insurance, and several other business issues. She knows what her income will be, and she's fine with that. For one thing she won't have hundreds of dollars of meds coming out of her income each month, so that will be a help.
My nephew has supposedly found 'a place' and has started moving out his things, with the final move being on Friday. Once he is out, my mom is going to have a friend and former neighbor come and change out her dead-bolt locks so my nephew won't be able to come in any more without her letting him in. He is beginning to understand the concept of "This is MY house and belongings, not YOURS!!!"
I've been sick for a week, but am doing better each day - I know it's been the flu, but worsened because I was just totally physically and emotionally exhausted. I finished up the regular laundry today and only have the dogs beds and my 'sick' blanket left to wash. Hubby and I pulled the camper out of the garage today, and got it opened up so that I can start straightening it and making beds tomorrow.
It had been our plan to be camping now, but after my dad passed away we called and postponed the trip for a week. We leave on Saturday morning and will be there until the following Sunday morning. We'll only be a couple of hours away, so around the middle of next week I'll run down to pick up my mom and her fishing stuff so she can join us for half the week. She loves fishing and hasn't gotten to do much this last couple of years.
Once we get back and I get things back to normal from the trip, I hope to figure out how I want MY days to go from now on! I know one thing, I've got to clean my house from top to bottom and back again, clean closets, reorganize, do the pre-Christmas window and carpet cleaning that didn't get done last year. I also want to get back to sharing more crafty and foodie things here on my blog. Of course Mama will be here visiting with us more, and I'll still be going to help her run errands and do things she needs help with - that's a given!
It's going to be odd to have more 'free' time on my hands - free meaning without being afraid to start something because I'll have to stop and go to my parents or the hospital. It's going to be fun, with an edge of bittersweet. But Daddy will always be right here with me, of that I have no doubt!
Specific prayer requests:
- Peace and a feeling of security for my mom as she lives alone for the first time in her 79 years!!!
- An easy transition for my nephew, and that he gets a job and really TRIES to make a life for himself.
- Rest for hubby and me as we spend next week at the lake, relaxing, eating and playing games.
Thank you once again for all the prayers and sweet encouragements. You folks are the best! Blessings to you all! Becky